If you’re a drug dealer
you have to kill your henchmen,
so they don’t turn you in.
Yes I’m a vigilante.
They say we’re cruel killers, it’s true.
My Son!
What have you done! Actually the most that you can really tell the public is collateral damage.
Our brother's name was Ericardo Medina.
His body was found on Park Avenue in Pasay City.
He --> had --> something --> tied --> to --> his --> back, --> 00:01:56:05 --> 00:02:00:23 his face was covered in masking tape, there was an ice pick in his neck.
A sign on his back said, 'I'm a pusher', another on his chest said, 'you're next' .
It's still painful, specially when I see a photograph of him, dead...
I can't sleep. You went to the police?
We don't believe in justice for the poor.
There's no equality,
nothing of the kind.
Since the day I was born, nothing has changed for poor people.
I know too well that we can't fight it. We can't fight for our rights.
We don't have the resources.
Because when it comes to seeking justice,
money is what counts.
I'm angry because, not just my brother, but many were killed.
They all had families and loved ones, but no money.
Where's the justice they speak of? We don't trust them.
He --> went --> to --> work --> at --> about --> 10am --> 00:03:24:22 --> 00:03:27:22 to tout for passengers.
He wasn't home by 3pm.
That's when...
we heard he'd been murdered.
When I saw him, he had stab wounds here.
He had nothing to do with drugs,
he was peaceful.
He was kind...
he was always ready to help people.
He was compassionate.
They wait on street corners, on motorbikes and ambush people.
We don't go out at night, we're too scared.
Who are they?
Are they with the police or not?
Who knows?
Many people say they're police. -Do you have faith?
Not anymore. Because of what they're doing,
they're brutes.
They act like they kill animals, not people.
You know, I strongly suspect the police killed my brother.
There were no signs of him trying to resist,
we could see none.
Some of the ones they captured got away.
The youngsters saw a minibus, with a sign; it said...
'Davao Police'. The war on drugs began with Rodrigo Duterte’s election in the summer of 2016. Since then, official figures confirm that more than a million people have surrendered or been arrested - 2000 have been killed in anti-drug operations and more than 4,000 died in unexplained circumstances. (Natural speech) Even if it is true that they were really killed or there was a mistake somewhere…that 3000 compared with the lives of 4 million Filipinos that can be destroyed by drugs if left unridled and without control? Marina: what do you say to the mother of that one innocent person. How can you excuse that? (Natural speech) Actually the most that you can really tell the public is collateral damage, like the bombings there, sometimes in the Middle East they bomb a hospital and say ‘well we did not expect that there were patients inside we thought that it was vacant’ same here. We didn’t meet President Duterte until much later. At first we wanted to know more about who’s doing the killing and why. Having witnessed our first wakes, we headed to the Human Rights Commission with our local contact. He has been following drug related killings for several months. Sherbien: Sorry I’m late. Marina: It’s OK what happened? Sherbien: Last night was crazy! I was filming the killings and there are 11 people killed. Marina: 11 people! Where? Sherbien: Around metro Manila. there’s one thing in common with all the killings. They wrap them before they kill them. Marina: Before they kill them? Sherbien: They want to show that they have a signature way of killing them… it’s vigilante. They wrapped it and there’s a saying here that “I’m a pusher, I’m addicted to drugs I’m a barker don’t emulate me” so brutal... one of the journalists doesn’t want to take photos anymore. Too much killing. NGO: We see an alarming increase in the number of deaths that have been recorded ripe with allegations of extra judicial killings.H* is one of the surviving kins of the slain victims in a case of an alleged extra judicial killing. We learned that both her husband and father in law were apprehended from their homes and then eventually brought to the police station and later there they were found dead. This woman is in the witness protection program so we were asked to conceal her identity. It can be dangerous to speak out against police corruption so this wouldn’t be the first time we’d be asked not to show a face.
They took my husband and came looking for drugs,
they even searched my 2-year-old baby.
They took her panties off and checked her bottom;
presumably, drugs could be stashed there. In this case there was no search or arrest warrant, so they searched for drugs.. none were found actually
I guess it was because he'd clashed with the police before.
He was arrested for gambling and drugs.
But we sorted it out. It cost up to 30,000. Basically you can fix the deal even in the mobile car after you’re caught. If it’s not totally fixed what will happen is that they will lower the charge when you get to the precinct.
Everyone they arrest is tapped for money.
Even the 4th police precinct chief knows they do it in Pasay,
because he gets his share. Can she tell us about how it ended the story they told her.
My husband told me that...
he and his father needed medical help after being beaten up.
Later I heard that the prison guards
said my father wouldn't let them handcuff him,
he resisted.
He allegedly produced a gun,
so they had to shoot him. This isn’t the first allegation we’ve heard about cops shooting suspects in custody. This man is a suspected drug lord. He was arrested in Abu Dhabi and extradited to face trial.
I just waited for them to come and arrest me.
Is the nose job so you can't be recognised, Kerwin?
He had a nose job! The President accused the man’s father, a local mayor, of being involved in the drug trade. After his arrest he was shot in detention.
The mayor said...
'don't shoot me'.
He said he needed the toilet, those two said, 'Not any more' and killed him.
Some wore plainclothes, some wore uniforms with no insignia.
We stood across from them.
They forced us to lie face down and said they'd be back if we dared talk.
They threatened to shoot us too. Kerwin Espinosa is expected to reveal the names of several officials with ties to the drug trade, he’s often seen in a bulletproof vest because of safety concerns.
Kerwin --> is --> like --> the --> missing --> link. --> 00:10:53:24 --> 00:10:57:12 He's like a missing piece of the puzzle. Some fear for their lives behind bars but for others being in custody is safer than the streets. This is the notorious Quezon city jail – the country’s most overcrowded prison. More than 3200 inmates are crammed into a space built for 800. Most are being held on drug related charges. This man has been here since 2011.
I talked to one who happened to have knowledge of what’s going on outside.
Killings in relation to drugs.
So it’s better to stay here...
because of that fear. Here? Even in these conditions? Overcrowded? They prefer to be here?
Yes, for safety,
because it’s very, very scary,
the fear outside of what will happen
after being released from here.
There are many, many cases
that have been documented,
after they were released... after one week they were killed. How difficult is it to live with so many people? Has the number gone up?
It went up, it really went up.
Since the term of President Duterte,
the influx of this place...
the volume was raised high.
I think we reached about 4,200 then.
It was so very congested here.
Me, my secret, you know...
just go with the flow.
What’s happening in other jails, even in the bureau of corrections
it’s one thing of concern…
because of the lax security.
They go for the entry of illegal drugs.
Guards they smuggle drugs inside because...
for me, it’s a failure for the bureau...
Why? We had a feeling that he wanted to say more but couldn’t with so many guards around us, so we needed someone who knows the ropes, this man spent 15 years behind bars for murder.
I was sent to jail...
on a murder case.
It was gang business.
I stabbed two guys,
they both kicked the bucket.
I knew the judge...
so my sentence was for murder by negligence. Marina: How do drugs and weapons end up in prisons there?....have you seen yourself when you were there how it happens?
I was the leader of the gang. - Marina: In your prison gang? -Yes, the prison gang.
In Muntinlula, I led the '14th brigade',
but there were so many gangs!
We had a full armoury...
complete with firearms and machetes.
We have manufacturers inside the jail,
we call them blacksmiths,
who craft firearms in the 5th sector.
We order materials from the guards. So you have some guards who are helping some prisoners. For what? What’s the benefit?
We paid them money.
For example 20 thousand, or 100 thousand. Where do you find the money to give the guards?
We had a meth lab.
Now, when it comes to meth,
gang members I mean,
'14th brigade'
members get liquid ingredients,
from the outside,
and then cook them.
It takes 18 hours after cooking
to get it ready.
It either tastes of coconut milk or strawberry.
If there's a draught inside,
the whole prison smells of coconut.
But actually, we're cooking meth.
Then we threw a big party.
We let our cell mates measure out doses.
Once it's split into doses,
we put it into small bags and sell it. It’s no secret that inmates are still managing to run their businesses from behind bars. 22 kilos of shabu were seized in a recent undercover operation. The suspect admitted getting the drugs from her boyfriend who’s in a maximum security prison. We wanted to know more about the underworld here so we went in search of one of the so-called vigilantes. We ended up in a basement near Manila’s red light district. We found a man who claims that he and 3 others were bailed and turned into hit-men.
We don't know who vouched for us.
They needed us because...
we're talented killers.
There are people who need our services.
I'm stuck in the whole thing, tied hand and foot.
And I like being this kind of man.
I can’t live without it now. Marina: How many people have you killed?
Eight.
On my first assignment, I killed 2.
Earlier it was 3 to 4.
Now it’s mostly one. Marina: How much money do you get?
If it's a well-known person,
who runs a big business,
there were 4 of us,
we each made 50 thousand.
Sometimes it’s dealers,
who don’t want to work with the syndicate
because --> it --> doesn’t --> share --> the --> profits. --> 00:18:12:07 --> 00:18:13:23 There are such cases,
but that's another story. Marina: What about police?
They support us.
Most of them provide cover for us.
When we murder someone,
they stay on the side-lines as if nothing's happening.
Our boss knows that if we're caught,
we'll be taken far away,
so they mostly, you know, cover for those who pay.. We needed to check out how the police operate and what they have to say about corruption. We headed to South Cotabato on the island of Mindanao. Here the authorities are constantly monitoring troubled areas. That’s because as well as drugs, the Philippines has also been battling religious extremism for decades. - The terrorists here are on the other side but they are scattered here all around the area. - Marina: Which kind of terrorists, which terrorist groups do you have here?- Abus Sayaf, BIFF they relate themselves to IS Islamic State, the other group. These are the terrorist groups here. One strategy the authorities’ use to minimise criminal activity is showing their presence and talking to anyone they deem to be suspicious. This is operation ‘Oplan Tokhang’, meaning knock and plead. It involves police officers knocking on the doors of potential users and pushers and asking them to sign a document promising not to use or sell drugs. If they know or learn about anyone else doing it, they have to inform the authorities. Marina: --> What --> is --> this? --> Cop: --> 00:20:11:13 --> 00:20:12:21 A --> suggestion --> box.Marina: --> So --> if --> anyone --> knows --> any --> information, --> someone --> using --> or --> selling --> drugs --> they --> put --> here.00:20:17:14 --> 00:20:18:18 Yes ma'am,
any suggestion is open to the PNP. Some human rights organizations have spoken out against the policy, saying it’s coercive and a step too far. Marina: Where are we going now?We will be going to Ambalgan, one of the hotspot village here in Santo Niño town it’s where drugs from Muslim Maguindanao they drop all the drugs there then they do partition of the drugs before they sell it to nearby towns. Sherbien: Oh they are running someone is running you see? 2 running. Everytime there’s a raid they run here, they cross the river into the mountains..they already crossed the river. This is their exit point.Marina: That’s how they get away Sherbien: This is the house of the number one seller here Marina: Where is he now?- He’s hiding. He’s the number one suspect on the wanted list. They do the selling here. See? These are shabu sachets. You can find it everywhere… Here’s there’s another one..sachet..sachet..this is big one..it’s 1000 pesos Marina: You’ve become an expert. Most of transactions…There they have very strategic way..here you can see this one..they dig the soil so that when there’s a police operation the car of the police will be stranded here..first there then here so they cannot easily reach the house Marina: how serious is the problem with drugs here?
Before the anti-drug campaign, it was sold everywhere, in vegetable markets.
People sold and used it everywhere.
He says his relatives used and sold drugs too.
Shame meant he wanted to change his name, his relatives used and sold drugs. (?)
They can do nothing because most people here do.
It's a depressed area so probably
one of their livelihood is selling drugs.Marina: Is that their way of making money or they are addicted?- This is a depressed area so probably one of their livelihoods is selling drugs. Just like in other countries, many people here are driven to criminal activity by poverty, poor prospects and the allure of easy money - slum areas are some of the worst affected. Maria Fe is a single parent who welcomes the extra security and monitoring that the campaign brings because she can’t control her teenage kids.
Sometimes, they go as far as fighting,
they hit each other, or even use knives.
What do I do?
They might eventually kill me too.
I could cope with Joel being shot or something.
Maybe then I'd have some peace. -------------------------------BREAK------------------------------- Maria Fe feels responsible that three of her sons got hooked on drugs. One is in rehab while another is in juvenile detention after being caught with shabu. She says Joel is the most violent and blames him for her miscarriage and his younger sister’s death.
They said, 'Mum, big brother Joel punched Ashley May,
then kicked her in the head.'
He came to the wake and I spoke to him.
He was crazy with grief.
He even wanted to break the glass casket window.
He was crying and saying,
'Mum, forgive me for what I did to Ashley May.'
He was the reason I had a miscarriage, from all the stress.
Joel was arrested on 20 September, after my baby was buried.
I'm grateful they put him in jail.
The police had already warned me that if he carried on that way,
one day we'd find him dead.
We are conducting a drug-buy bust,
particularly in this barangay...
Barangay General Paulino Santos.
Our guys are already there inside...
Three guys escaped, but we got one guy. Marina: --> The --> people --> who --> fled --> who --> are --> they --> to --> you?- --> 00:25:54:05 --> 00:25:55:14 My --> husband.-Marina: --> Your --> husband.00:25:56:10 --> 00:25:59:04 I --> didn't --> know --> anything --> about --> drugs.00:25:59:09 --> 00:26:01:10 This is not an ordinary house.
This is a drug den…
This is the paraphernalia that we were able
to seize from the suspects.
Pipes...
It's used for shabu. The police are always accompanied by a local official and the press during these operations to make sure there are witnesses. Sadly not everyone follows the rules and we’ve been told that some cops plant evidence, either to incriminate a particular person or to avoid embarrassment when they get it wrong.
It's an open sachet.
It's been distributed and cut to small pieces of shabu.
This is the weighing scale. Marina: Which shows that they were trying to sell. - Yes by grams. Weighing scale is..we can say.. Marina: Seller
We can say 'big fish'. Marina: --> Ah --> really? --> So --> this --> person --> sitting --> there --> is --> in --> big --> big --> troubleYeah --> Marina: --> And --> you --> will --> try --> to --> get --> him --> to --> say --> names --> now00:27:03:04 --> 00:27:06:14 Yes, we'll conduct an interview after inventory.
- Runners, sellers, everyone? - Yes.
These --> are --> the --> illegal --> drugs --> confiscated.Marina: --> For --> example, --> what --> kind --> of --> things?00:27:23:05 --> 00:27:25:21 Illegal drugs like shabu, marijuana.
Last year, we received a total of more than 900 plus...
but this year alone we received more than 2000, Marina: Wow
so --> it --> doubled.Marina. --> Would --> you --> say --> that --> the --> police --> always --> use --> appropriate --> force. --> Would --> you --> say --> everyone --> follows --> the --> law? --> 00:27:43:09 --> 00:27:45:02 No...
For me, we cannot control their mental faculties.
So, whatever they do in their operation,
we have no control over that. Marina: --> Do --> you --> investigate --> police --> officers? --> 00:28:03:21 --> 00:28:06:14 Yes, we have internal affairs,
who investigate police who've committed transgressions.
We also conduct mandatory drug testing of police personnel,
to know whether they are involved in using drugs,
and --> not --> only --> that: --> if --> they --> are --> also --> protectors.Marina: --> In --> your --> experience --> have --> you --> seen --> many --> police --> officers --> that --> are --> involved --> or --> no?00:28:33:20 --> 00:28:38:05 Yes, because they want to live in style and comfort, that's why.
And this is the only way to get rich in an easy way. With so many rogue police officers people no longer know who to trust - whether it’s worth cooperating with them or keeping silent. That’s what the women in this detention facility told me, most are here because of drugs.
They wanted us to tell who was involved,
but we don't want to.
Others surrender, they give names...
They die.
My friend was killed by someone.
That's what we're afraid of.
We're afraid of what happened to Espinosa,
who was murdered in jail.
We don't know who to trust. Though this woman admits to being a user, like most of her fellow inmates, she doesn’t understand how or why her name was prominent on the drugs watch list.
I was arrested, detained while breastfeeding my baby.
I don't know what evidence the informants provided
to put me where I am now.
We know a lot about them.
What they do, what they say,
we saw their faces. Because some women here were in relationships with pushers, it was only a matter of time before they ended up in the wrong place at the wrong time. Many were pregnant when they were arrested, like this girl.
I was a drug addict, sir,
because my ex was a drug-dealer.
Yes, sir, he was a drug-dealer.
That's why I got addicted.
He was middle aged, and wanted me to live in a house.
He rented it especially for me for 10,000 pesos ($200).
He'd come to see me on the days when he'd have goods delivered.
When he realised he was about to be arrested,
he stopped coming to make sure I didn't get charged.
He knew I had two children.
So I went back home.
By then, I'd met a guy who later became my boyfriend.
Then, one day they stormed our house: the door was open.
I was scared when they entered.
I said, what's all this about?
They handcuffed two of my friends, my boyfriend and his cousin.
I couldn't keep silent, so they cuffed me and hit my legs.
My boyfriend said I was three months pregnant but they didn't believe him.
So, I was arrested. With so many drug-related cases in the country, the justice system is struggling to cope so these women will be here for a long time before they’re even sentenced. They say the campaign against drugs has endangered their lives, giving them no way out.
We also want to know if we are a target,
or if President Duterte is only threatening that
he'll have all drug addicts and pushers killed.
If anything happens to me,
would it be possible to sue him
for possibly having ordered my killing?
His threat may be the reason.
He threatened me on air.
He threatened all drug dealers and users. It was finally time to meet the President. We followed him around for 15 hours during which he visited fighters wounded in anti-terror operations. At two in the morning he was finally ready to see us. - Let me know if I need to retouchMarina: If you need to retouch? No you look fine- OK Marina: Yes the whole day. I was at the jet I didn’t see Marina: following you from the other jet and in the helicopter - Military camps also?Marina: Yes. - I’m really very sorryMarina: We missed a flight but it’s OK we got a new one. Don’t worry about it.Marina: We’re flying out in a few hours, not even a few hours at 4:30 am to Manila.- You have your own plane? Marina: Of course not. - You take commercial flight?Marina:Whodo you think we are? Hahaha yes commercial flight. You know the first few days there were a lot of killings and they were already attributing it to my administration when as a matter of fact I didn’t yet even give the order….. right at the outset when I assumed office I had to fire 7 police generals for involvement in drugs. We’ve heard of corrupt government officials, corrupt police officers… surely there’s more than 7… how are you dealing with it? Congress took over and they conducted their own investigation and it went something like this..even the secretary of justice, a lady was the one who was really doing drugs with the prisoners there inside… it’s being driven by people inside the prisons….this is the drug industry and it contains about 3000 policemen including generals and coronals and a lot of police on the ground. We discovered along the way a lot of mayors and governors were into it so I had to issue the warning ‘stop because you will regret it’. -------------------------------BREAK------------------------------- As more is revealed about some government officials and the police protecting drug lords, it’s not only runners who are afraid of being silenced but some Officials too. They say their opponents are abusing the campaign to eliminate political competition.
I am the president of the association of barangay council.
I was really surprised that I was linked with drugs.
I'm on bail now...
amounting to 80,000 pesos
for --> illegal --> firearms --> and --> illegal --> ammunition.Marina: --> But --> why --> do --> you --> think --> you --> were --> on --> the --> list?00:36:18:09 --> 00:36:21:01 I think it was a political motivation.
I have a political rival in my barangay.
We were elected for 3 terms, they did not win.
I'm afraid that certain local officials,
they can do whatever they want.
If they do not find evidence with regards to
the search warrant, they plant it. Marina: --> We --> heard --> that --> the --> higher --> rank --> you --> get..for --> example --> police --> officers --> have --> motivation --> to --> get --> someone --> who --> is --> higher --> rank --> because --> they --> get --> a --> better --> reward, --> promotion. --> Is --> there --> any --> truth --> to --> that?00:36:57:06 --> 00:37:04:21 That's why I was a victim of being an accomplice.Marina: So you are a big accomplishment for them to get..like a big fishYeah yeah Marina: We’ve heard reports that some police officers are motivated to get drug addicts or drug lords and sometimes they get it wrong but we heard that they want to get as many people as possible because it looks good that they are efficient, that maybe they could get a promotion or that the higher rank someone is they get more money so sometimes innocent people get caught in the middle. How are you modifying the system so that it works better? We cannot build a nation over the bones of our citizens that ain’t that way so there has to be some other way. All you have to do is to arrest them. Why do you have to kill people? If they surrender peacefully both their hands up in the air why do you have to kill them? Marina: Because you can’t build a case against them. No……what is the point? You are inviting a case of murder when all you have to do is watch him sell drugs and then when he does not want to be arrested if there’s a fight kill him.Marina: Can we address a little bit reports of the vigilantes and the secret death squads connected to the police. Is there any truth to those claims? - No…..I don’t have to be a vigilante. Even if I want to kill them I would not have the time to do it so I told some of the leaders of congress you have to have some program for this. And then human rights say I encourage them to be vigilants. You don’t need…You can always send the guy to prison….in cases of drugs and cases of serious crimes you go directly to jail. Cases here are being heard on a 3-4-5 6 years and you rob them so why do you have to kill him? Make him suffer for his crime. Marina: And the jails here are so overcrowded it’s suffering enough just being in the detention centers Yes It’s not just detention facilities that are overcrowded in the Philippines now, but rehab centres too. Human rights organizations say the government should’ve been better prepared to accommodate the thousands of people who surrendered voluntarily. This is one of just 20 official rehab centres in the whole country. This is a rehab center dedicated to drug addicts most of them are addicted to methamphetamines or what we call shabu. We have capability of admitting 1000 patients but presently we have 1300 patients…. It is a bit overcrowded. This is a group counselling session being handled by one of our staff and the person I was talking about is this guy. Maybe you could tell them what happened to you.
Before I was sent here,
the police raided my house to ask
about the dealers I bought my drugs from,
who I used drugs with, how long I'd been using. Did he surrender because he was afraid he’d be killed?
So, sir, they shot at me after the raid.
- Were you wounded? - No, I escaped. This guy started using shabu and other drugs in his early teens. He says he couldn’t get over his parents’ divorce and wasn’t strong enough to say no to friends.
At that time, my family was falling apart
and I was weak, I guess.
Instead of being friends with good guys,
I fell in with bad ones.
One day they had a party.
I went over, and there they were.
I thought they were drinking but they were using.
They offered me some and I liked it. (missed sentence) They’ve been together since the 6th grade. When she got pregnant, she moved in with him. That’s when she learnt he didn’t sleep days on end. Later, he started stealing from his nearest and dearest.
Everything of value he was selling off.
There was nothing left, nothing at all, except for chairs.
Our house was chairs, only chairs...
a bed... He sold our fridge, our electric fan...
When I was giving birth, he was just in bed,
just taking psychotropic drugs.
I felt so sorry for myself then. That’s one aspect of recovery in the Phillipines. In other cases, local authortities find new, and at times controversial, ways to keep addicts busy, off the streets and under control.
The mayor said, 'If you don't change your way of living,
the casket that you're making,
you may be the one using it.' But it's just a joke.
With this kind of livelihood they have,
of course, they are focused on their job
and their earnings from this
goes directly to their family.
Lito is one of our surenderees
who is devoting himself to a way of living
that could help his family, and himself. Marina: When did you come here? When did you surrender?
Two months.
I surrendered because I'm scared
because Duterte's campaign against drugs is dangerous.
There have been a lot of killings.
After that the city mayor...
It's a program to surrender...
Because I don't want to go from
making a casket to being put in one.
I changed my life.
I'm --> going --> straight.Marina: --> In --> 2 --> months? --> That’s --> quick.00:43:49:23 --> 00:43:54:07 I was always scared because people are killing over drugs. Marina: Can we talk about why shabu in particular is so popular in the Philippines? Shabu in itself is relatively easy to produce and it’s cheap so it’s available almost everywhere. Now one thing they like with shabu it’s a stimulant it makes them feel good … it keeps them awake. It also builds their self-esteem, they have feelings of grandiosity and they don’t care about anything else anymore.…There’s a high incidence of something called substance induced psychosis or drug induced psychosis, they can lose control of their minds because of too much methamphetamine intake. It’s this psychosis that people are scared of and the criminal behaviour that goes with it, which is why many people support and applaud Duterte’s anti-drugs campaign, IN SPITE of the killing spree it unleashed. Filipinos agree that at this point, drastic measures ARE needed but worry that anyone could end up dead as both corrupt officials and criminals are using the campaign to cover their tracks. The current issue right now has resulted in divisiveness in the country – a lot of people do agree because of the fear they have in regards to the criminality… It is only the methods we decry of.
We must wipe out drugs not people.
If there are still users in the neighbourhood,
it means the distributor is still at large.
He's untouchable. - Why are you doing this?
This is my source of income.
Plus, I'm a user myself.
I've had a feeling that...
they'll get rid of me, too, but I'm already in too deep.
They should have started from the top
of the criminal chain, not the bottom.
It's all being orchestrated by high-ranking officials.
We don't even have food for the wake.
Those at the bottom still have a chance to go straight.
It's time to change.
I've caused my wife and child too much sorrow.
- I couldn't fall asleep at night. - Why not?
- I kept looking at my picture of you. - And then?
Nothing. I just wept and wept…
- What made you weep? - Everything.
The other day I said, 'Honey, try to find daddy in this picture.'
She found you straight away.
'Look, it's daddy!
'Why is he bald? Why is he so bold?'
I know for sure something will stir inside him.
I just want us all to be together.
I just want to push through it.
After these struggles, after these problems,
I want to be able to say,
'Wow! I made it through this fight!
I survived, I made it!'
I'll do it, by the grace of God.
I still love him.
I'm taking care of him, getting nothing in return.
Deep down, I know he loves me so much.
I know, I really do. So I'll prove it.